Hello blog readers and good Sunday to all you boys and girls. Today Gommy wants to talk about self examination in the way that Goms wonders if I am a fraud. It was pointed out to me recently, that I don't live up to the 'wiseness' that I preach about on my blog.
Recently, I have found myself 'drowning' in my own advice. You could say that I feel like the worst kind of 'advice giver' in that I find it difficult to follow what I say we should do. I do feel as though some are just waiting to say, "Aha, caught ya'"...and that is sad...sort of like kicking a dog when he is down. But, if I dish it out, I have to be able to take it.
In a veiled explanation of Gommys' life in the past month....it feels as if the Universe is throwing everything back at me that I have ever said out there and said..."Really? How about this scenario Goms? How are you going to act when XY or Z happens big shot?" Goms isn't in a real good place right now and I know I have to dig down and reevaluate everything I have been trying to understand in the last few years since everything came tumnbling down all around Grandpa and me.
Goms has said in the past that anyone can be great when things are going good.....it is adversity that shows the real mettle of a person. Goms is trying to work on that mettle right now.
Goms has always had a really tough time watching anyone getting hurt or watching someone in an embarassing situation. I actually feel sick having to watch someone made to feel badly. That leads to another of Goms' personality traits.....I don't like...NO I HATE confrontations. Gommy would rather walk away or avoid any situation that could end in confrontation. I guess you could say Gommy is a cowardess. I guess I am guilty of that one as well.
The Facebook quote on my profile page says, "Sometimes courage doesn't always roar, sometimes courage says I will just try again tomorrow." So that is where Gommys is today folks....looking for courage.
Goms is going to share a very inspirational poem with you called "Desiderata". It was brought up to Goms recently and made me remember to re-read it and it has a wonderful message. Hope you enjoy it :
Desiderata - by Max Ehrmann
Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass.
Take kindly to the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Max Ehrmann c.1920
Enjoy and I will leave you with those wonderful words....Gommy has some self-work to do. Be happy...Hugs and Mush, Gommy
